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Her body was shriveled up and mostly 52 frozen from late-stage Parkinson’s disease, but her mind was sharp. 53 54 When we first moved to Nevada and I was choosing an assisted living community 55 for my mother, Sunrise Senior Living stood out as the most beautiful and 56 professional. But they only had two rooms available—one on the second floor, 57 and one on the third floor. 58 59 My wife, a hospice nurse, recommended we select the third-floor unit. 60 61 “But that’s the memory care unit. Everyone there has dementia or some form of 62 memory loss,” I told my wife. 63 64 “I know, but that means the staff-to-patient ratio will be higher. And since 65 she can’t walk or leave her room, she’ll see the staff more. You know how 66 social your Mom is,” my wife said. 67 68 My wife is brilliant. 69 70 We chose the third-floor room, and sure enough, Mom loved it. There were views 71 of the mountains outside her bedroom window, and the staff loved visiting with 72 her because she was outgoing and of sound mind. 73 74 I frequently visited Mom and brought her cupcakes, snacks, and new books to 75 read. And when she could no longer hold books, I hired a woman to come and read 76 to her. But then she and the woman became good friends and often spent an hour 77 chatting, which was fine with me. 78 79 All I wanted was for my mother to be comfortable and happy. 80 81 We’re both still here, for now 82 83 In the last year of my mother’s life, she loved to reminisce and talk about the 84 past. 85 86 Sometimes it’s unhealthy to wallow in the past or romanticize days gone by with 87 rosy retrospection. You can get stuck there, and forget how to live in the 88 present. But when your life is reduced to a bed and four walls, sometimes the 89 past is all you can escape into. 90 91 Mom would tell me about the old haunts in Long Island where she grew up and 92 used to play at the beach. I’d bring my iPad during our visits, look up those 93 old places, and show Mom photos and videos. This delighted Mom, and soon we 94 were looking up her old friends, “to see if they’re still alive,” Mom would say 95 with a laugh. 96 97 We found one of her childhood friends, Elsie, and even located a phone number. 98 We called, and amazingly, Elsie answered. 99 100 For the next thirty minutes or so, Mom and Elsie traversed the landscape of 101 their early days and all the fun they had in the sun and surf of Long Island, 102 New York. As they spoke, I envisioned the sunny skies and seagulls flying over 103 them. I heard the surf crashing on the beach not far from their blanket on the 104 sand where their picnic lunch included sandwiches, sodas, and laughter. 105 106 Eventually, my Mom and Elsie said their goodbyes. 107 108 After the phone call, Mom became a bit quiet and reflective. Then she looked at 109 me and said, “You don’t know how wonderful those years are until they’re gone. 110 Most everyone disappears.” 111 112 “Well, we found Elsie. She’s still here,” I said. 113 114 Mom nodded in agreement, looked out the window, and said, “We’re both still 115 here, for now.” 116 117 Freshen up your feelings about being alive 118 119 On the shelves in my home library are several books by the late author [40]Jim 120 Harrison, perhaps best known for his novella, [41]“Legends of the Fall,” which 121 became a movie starring Anthony Hopkins and Brad Pitt. 122 123 Harrison was a friend of the late painter [42]Russell Chatham, whose beautiful 124 tonalist paintings adorn the covers of many Harrison novels. Harrison and 125 Chatham appeared once in an episode of Anthony Bourdain’s popular television 126 series, “Parts Unknown.” 127 128 In the episode, the three talked about food and life, as they enjoyed an 129 amazing home-cooked meal and loads of wine. Sadly, Harrison died not long after 130 that episode. 131 132 On his [43]website, Bourdain wrote the following about Jim Harrison: 133 134 “Shortly after the filming of this episode, Jim passed away, only a few 135 months after the death of his beloved wife of many years, Linda. It is very 136 likely that this is the last footage taken of him. To the very end, he ate 137 like a champion, smoked like a chimney, lusted (at least in his heart) 138 after nearly every woman he saw, drank wine in quantities that would be 139 considered injudicious in a man half his age, and most importantly, got up 140 and wrote each and every day—brilliant, incisive, thrilling sentences and 141 verses that will live forever. He died, I am told, with pen in hand.” 142 143 Recently, a thoughtful reader of my work sent me an email with a link to a 144 documentary titled, “All That Is Sacred.” [44]IMDb.com described the film as 145 follows: 146 147 “In the late 1960s, poets, writers, and musicians descend upon Key West to 148 pursue their love of literature and fishing (and cocaine and acid). Tom 149 McGuane is soon joined by friends Jim Harrison, Richard Brautigan, Russell 150 Chatham, and Jimmy Buffett. They create some of their generation’s best 151 art.” 152 153 Watch the documentary trailer below. 154 155 It’s a wonderful documentary with interviews and film footage from long ago 156 when all these writers and artists were young, full of life and promise. But we 157 also see a few of them, the ones still alive, wistfully reflecting on those 158 earlier days of fun and friendship. 159 160 And then the film shares the following quote from Jim Harrison: 161 162 “We go through life with a diminishing portfolio of enthusiasms.” 163 164 Harrison goes on to say that we must seek, “jolts of enormous electricity,” to 165 “freshen up your feelings about being alive.” 166 167 In other words, don’t melt into your couch and stop living. Don’t give up on 168 life just because your portfolio of enthusiasms has diminished. There are 169 always ways to squeeze more out of life, even if you’re old and less able to do 170 the things you used to. 171 172 We have to make the special moments count. 173 174 The astonishing thing about growing old is that everyone disburses 175 176 My mother never let Parkinson’s disease or her contorted body stand in the way 177 of enjoying a great conversation or buttercream cupcakes and cheesecake. 178 179 [1]Mom and her desserts. Photo:[45] John P. Weiss 180 181 Mom kept up on the news, enjoyed discussing politics and books, and often 182 dispensed life lessons and advice for the young assisted living staff members 183 who came to her to share boyfriend problems or other worries. 184 185 No doubt, Mom probably confronted her own diminishing portfolio of enthusiasms, 186 but she always had the capacity to bounce back. She made new friends, even 187 though so many of her old friends were disappearing. 188 189 In the “All That Is Sacred” documentary, writer Thomas McGuane says the 190 following: 191 192 “The astonishing thing about growing old is that everyone disburses.” 193 194 Sadly, I have found this to be true. 195 196 Retirement and aging mean that people often move. Some pass away. Others lose 197 touch because their lives have changed, and new priorities emerge, like 198 grandkids, doctor appointments, and such. 199 200 What do we do when confronted with this diminishing portfolio of enthusiasms 201 and everyone disburses? 202 203 We follow Jim Harrison’s lead. We make new friends. We enjoy good food and 204 drink. We celebrate the great outdoors. We continue loving those close to us, 205 including our animal companions. 206 207 And most importantly, we continue to embrace our creative passions. To the best 208 of our ability. 209 210 Jim Harrison, despite his aging and decrepit body, got up every day to write by 211 hand. On his last day, before a heart attack ushered him beyond the veil, he 212 was seated at his writing desk with pen in hand composing a poem. 213 214 Now that’s the way to go out. 215 216 217 218 [47118_5633] 219 220 221 222 Support my creative work. 223 224 225 226 This site is free of ads and paywalls. If you enjoy my work, please leave a 227 donation of any amount. Just click the secure link below. 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I 279 love when you write about your Mother! 280 281 Posted by [62]Frankie Jackson · via [63]johnpweiss.com · 2 days ago 282 [64][46] 283 284 I know I have said it before ... "This is one of the best you have written!" I 285 shared it to my FB page because I believe in all that you have written here... 286 having lost my Mom three years ago, and Dad three years before that. These 287 things you mention are extremely important... life is so worth living! 288 289 Posted by [65]Marsha Hamby Savage · via [66]johnpweiss.com · 2 days ago 290 [67][b0] 291 292 John - you write beautifully, and I thank you for sharing your talent with us. 293 This essay contains important lessons to help us maneuver life's ups and downs. 294 295 Posted by [68]Donna Skeels Cygan · via [69]johnpweiss.com · 2 days ago 296 [70][af] 297 298 Great piece, John. My mom turns 90 in September and I'm planning a surprise 299 party with her remaining friends and family (don't tell her!). She had six 300 sisters and three brothers. Only four remain and she's the oldest still living. 301 In sending out the invites, I was aware of the people who have "dispersed". Mom 302 is still sharp and we speak regularly. I greatly enjoy when she tells stories 303 of her life and have tried to record some of them. I'm sentimental like her and 304 know that in years to come, I will be playing them back. But for now, I just 305 want to appreciate her today. 306 307 Posted by Jim Edmonds · via [71]johnpweiss.com · 2 days ago 308 [72][8d] 309 310 I can't help it, I always smile when I see a picture of your mom. How precious 311 she is all dressed up with her hair coifed, her pearls, and always a smile. She 312 reminds me so much of my mom. I think they would have been great friends. The 313 city girl from Long Island, and the farm girl from Washington would have shared 314 stories of life and love spending the afternoon lounging over their favorite 315 desert and a cup of coffee! 316 317 Posted by [73]Ron · via [74]johnpweiss.com · 2 days ago 318 [75][15] 319 320 What a beautiful essay, particularly your lovely and loving writing about your 321 mom! I read a book a while back , Live Life in Crescendo, I believe the title 322 was, that embraced this essay's main point - even as you age, keep discovering 323 and contributing. Thank you John, for this insightful writing today. 324 325 Posted by Shirley · via [76]johnpweiss.com · 2 days ago 326 [77][av] 327 328 This one really hit the mark today! I forgot how much change and adventure is 329 needed so I don't become so sedentary! I can keep my mind busy most days but 330 occasionally a person needs the extraordinary to feel that enthusiasm of life 331 as time goes on day to day. 332 333 Posted by julie · via [78]johnpweiss.com · 2 days ago 334 [79][4f] 335 336 What a wonderful way to be ushered into your meaningful and poetic stories. 337 Recently, life has been keeping me too busy for much of anything beyond the 338 necessaries. Thank you for the fresh breath 339 340 Posted by Ruby Boddie · via [80]johnpweiss.com · 2 days ago 341 [81][bf] 342 343 I really think life is more enjoyable if lived fully! I loved the message of 344 this article! It's not only up to me, but in my power, to make the most of my 345 life, and how I approach living is how I will experience life. I am a product 346 of my own viewpoints. But I would like to make a comment about admiring Jim 347 Harrison. Yes, his natural talent and serious devotion to writing gained him a 348 large audience, but I want to challenge admiration of his lifestyle. As someone 349 who has lived a lifestyle of rapacious unrestrained lascivious abandon, and as 350 someone who has also experienced the greatest sort of adventure, fulfillment, 351 and accomplishment practicing a different sort of lifestyle guided by diligent, 352 clean, and healthy, nourishing and enriched abundance, I would like to assert 353 that to admire his behavior is misguided. He may have been a great and 354 accomplished writer, but to what higher planes and novel achievements may he 355 have reached if he cared for his mind and body? Such a great potential as 356 Harrison possessed was surely sadly less than the lofty or ground-breaking 357 writing he would have produced if he took good care of himself? I will soften 358 this remark by saying that it is each person's responsibility to make decisions 359 about who they are, and for all I know, he has lived the most glorious 360 existence of any person ever, but I can't fail to speak up for the lessons 361 learned from my own life 362 363 Posted by Leslie Elizabeth Taylor · via [82]johnpweiss.com · 2 days ago 364 [83][3e] 365 366 Jim was part of a circle of movie people I mingled with, as was Sam Shepherd 367 and Buck Henry, among others. . He had an aura of melancholy.. Gentle, deeply 368 kind, an empathic listener he was often quiet in the middle of groups. His 369 personality seemed deeply rooted in the Northern Woods. I loved the simplicity 370 of his books. They were bare boned and raw. Ruthlessly carved down to the 371 sacred heart of the characters and their stories. I especially loved Legends of 372 the Fall. He drank his whiskey with one ice cube and leaned in while talking to 373 a friend. 374 375 Posted by Sam Crespi · via [84]johnpweiss.com · 2 days ago 376 [85][45] 377 378 Love this! It is entirely possible to live well in old age, even with a 379 "diminishing portfolio of enthusiasms." Attitude is everything. My mother 380 taught me by example, and I am practicing now. Greet each day with gratitude 381 and look for its gifts. Don't focus on what you've lost; relish what you still 382 have. Notice people. Engage. And by all means, eat dessert and keep writing! 383 384 Posted by [86]Aileen Gronewold · via [87]johnpweiss.com · 1 day ago 385 [88][4d] 386 387 I look to your Saturday letters every week. They inspire me to live life better 388 and notice the important things around me. I also love your cartoons. Please 389 keep adding them! 390 391 Posted by Betty · via [89]johnpweiss.com · 12 hours ago 392 [90][2d] 393 394 I love this piece and your writing in general. 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