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      3 Daily notes for 2023-07-17
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      5 Jul 17, 2023 · 1447 words · 7 minute read
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      8   • [5]Notes on conflict
      9   • [6]The INT650
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     11 Notes on conflict [7]🔗
     12 
     13     When my master and I were walking in the rain, he would say, “Do not walk
     14     so fast, the rain is everywhere.”
     15     —Shunryu Suzuki
     16 
     17 For a very long time — too much of my life — I thought conflict was a sign that
     18 there was a problem. I didn’t like disagreeing with people about much of
     19 anything. I’m using “conflict” in a broad sense: Over resources, points of
     20 view, vision, beliefs, tastes.
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     22 Over time I shifted on the matter a little, but when I look back on it I
     23 realize I wasn’t really evolving my attitude toward conflict, I was just
     24 evolving my response to its existence, while still believing that being in a
     25 state of conflict is a problem. I just got better at keeping my blood pressure
     26 low and gritting through it. I think I was looking at conflict as a thing that
     27 you have to acknowledge exists, but that you need to get through as quickly as
     28 possible, because it’s a bad place to be.
     29 
     30 That attitude created some problems:
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     32   • When you’re bad at being in conflict, you’re at a disadvantage with people
     33     who are good at it and mean you harm; and you’re annoying people who are
     34     good at it and mean you no harm.
     35   • When you look at conflict as a thing to grit through and end quickly it’s
     36     hard to maintain your integrity. (See above: The people who don’t want
     37     what’s best for you (or the business, or the world, or etc.) understand
     38     this, and the ones who are really good at it and a little indifferent
     39     toward what’s best for you are counting on you to do all the work to get
     40     out of conflict.)
     41   • When you’d rather do anything than admit that you’re in a state of
     42     conflict, you will eventually do something about your problem that is less
     43     skillful for having waited than if you’d admitted it to yourself (and
     44     whoever you’re in conflict with) sooner. Or, as one of my past managers put
     45     it to me, “don’t be that guy who hockey-sticks.” (I nodded then kind of
     46     hockey-sticked.)
     47   • When you’re bad at being in conflict, and you’re willing to be set aside
     48     your integrity or do other things to get out of it quickly, you’ll
     49     eventually get tired of “losing” and figure out ways to “win” that cause
     50     others to see you as, at best, baffling and frustrating, and at worst
     51     Machiavellian and treacherous.
     52 
     53 That, anyhow, is a rough categorization of my many hundreds of mishandlings of
     54 conflict. Maybe the most interesting thing to me about all those mishandlings
     55 is that over time I managed to convince myself that failing to be in conflict
     56 well was a sign of virtue. Moral sophistication. “Taking the high road.” “Not
     57 worth the stress.” “Learning how to play the game.” “Protecting the team.”
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     59 Over the past few years, I’ve changed on the matter: On balance, I definitely
     60 don’t think its existence is a sign there’s a problem. It’s just a sign that
     61 there’s a conflict.
     62 
     63 I still feel a little cautious about conflict when I don’t know the person I’m
     64 in conflict with very well. Caution is useful, because people who are bad at
     65 being in conflict but mean well — people who are “good eggs” — can still sort
     66 of mess things up, because if I have to bet on whether someone hates “losing”
     67 or just grinning and bearing it more, my money is on them hating losing more.
     68 When things get to a place where it feels existential to them, even good eggs
     69 can act sort of rotten. So you have to take time and attend to the interaction
     70 so they can be in conflict and feel safe about it.
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     72 I still think I have a responsibility to introduce the existence of conflict
     73 with kindness, or receive the news that I’ve entered into a state of conflict
     74 in a manner that invites a full airing. “Relaxed and possibly delighted
     75 curiosity,” I suppose I’d call it, rather than a furrowing of the brow and
     76 assurances that I want to restore harmony at once. Because I don’t want to
     77 restore harmony at once. I want to understand why we want different things,
     78 then figure out how we can both behave with integrity while we sort that out.
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     80 The INT650 [8]🔗
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     82 [f4d4087a00284d89b3cedd2720a3b117]
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     84 I finally quit waffling on what to do with the Royal Enfield Himalayan. I took
     85 it up to [9]Sabatino Moto in St. Johns and traded it in for another Royal
     86 Enfield: An INT650 (“Interceptor” everywhere else in the world, but not in
     87 North America where Honda owns the rights to the name.)
     88 
     89 It’s a pretty night and day difference. The Himalayan is a mountain goat, and
     90 the INT650 is … something a little prettier and a little less rough. I was
     91 never going to ride the Himalayan the way it was meant to be ridden — fire
     92 roads, gravel, dirt — and I didn’t have the patience for the very “work in
     93 progress” attitude Royal Enfield took toward it. One thing you learn from all
     94 the Himalayan videos on YouTube is that the people who love them best don’t
     95 mind fiddling, tweaking, and wrenching. After reading hundreds of owners talk
     96 about their experiences, I have come to realize I lost the factory QA lottery
     97 on mine, and that engendered a lack of confidence in it that I never recovered
     98 from.
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    100 Also turns out, I think, that I had a bad dealer:
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    102 The first RE dealer in the Portland area doesn’t really want to sell them, and
    103 it really does not want to do anything other than the most basic service. I
    104 think I’ve documented that elsewhere, so I won’t go into it more here, but I’ll
    105 just offer the observation that RE’s strategy of linking up with Harley dealers
    106 to build out its US distribution network did its customers no favors.
    107 
    108 The folks at Sabatino, on the other hand, seem to have a genuine appreciation
    109 for the bikes, that extends all the way to acknowledging that RE has some QA
    110 challenges. Sabatino addresses that by doing their own QA when they uncrate a
    111 new bike. And they’re willing to talk about the ups and downs of each model. My
    112 head was briefly turned by another model, and I got a reasoned, balanced,
    113 discussion of why maybe that one wouldn’t work for me.
    114 
    115 They also offer test rides. I can name one dealership that grudgingly made me
    116 sign a waiver and write a check for the full amount to test ride a Grom for
    117 five laps around their parking lot, and they only did that because it was a
    118 two-year-old model and they’d sold the newer one they promised me out from
    119 under me. Sabatino made me do the waiver, share my insurance information, and
    120 hand over my license, but then they tossed me the keys and told me they’d see
    121 me when they saw me.
    122 
    123 Anyhow, the test ride sold me. I’ve been through several configurations of
    124 motorcycle and scooter since getting my motorcycle endorsement — maxiscoots,
    125 normal scoots, mini-moto, cruiser, trail bike, dual-sport — and none of them
    126 have been the thing I first imagined myself riding when I finally decided to
    127 learn how to ride. Well, learn how to ride as an adult, anyhow. The twin 650
    128 runs and sounds nice, the bike handles more comfortably than the Himalayan
    129 despite there being 40 pounds more of it, and the super-simple analog speedo
    130 and tach are just sort of pleasant. I ran it around St. Johns for a while, was
    131 struck by how immediately comfortable it was (and how confident I felt on it),
    132 and that was that.
    133 
    134 Yesterday I took it on a ride out Foster Road toward Damascus. There’s a side
    135 road I head out onto that eventually rejoins on the other side of Damascus,
    136 close to a back road that joins the highway down to Estacada. So I headed out
    137 past Estacada, to see how it did on a small back highway. There was a little
    138 bit of buffeting — no fairings — but it ran and handled well. I felt more
    139 confident on the little back roads coming back than I did heading out as I got
    140 to know the bike better. I did decide to detract from its vintage purity a
    141 little by ordering a Dart flyscreen when I got back: People say it helps clean
    142 up the turbulence at highway speeds, and keeps the bugs off the pretty silver
    143 cans.
    144 
    145 Anyhow, glad I’ve got it in the driveway with so much of the riding season
    146 left, and I can wholeheartedly recommend Sabatino Moto if you’re looking to buy
    147 one for yourself.
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