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     22 Getting Stuff Done By Not Being Mean to Yourself
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     24 August 20, 2010   |   [18]38 Comments
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     26 [19]Screen shot 2010-08-20 at 12.50.55 PM
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     28 I’ve spent a lot of time in my life trying to force myself to do things. Really
     29 good things. Things that are important to me. Things like meditating,
     30 journaling, going to the gym, and so on. I set schedules over and over. (I will
     31 rise at 5. Meditate, 530-630. Journal 630-730. Breakfast 8-9, and so on.) I
     32 fail way more than I succeed, which makes me really, really upset. I get
     33 angrier and angrier at myself, curse my lack of discipline, shame myself for
     34 watching Battlestar Galactica (again) instead of writing, delve into my
     35 psychology hoping to unearth the seeds of self-sabotage. It spirals out of
     36 control until I either give in to lying on the couch or somehow manage to
     37 squeeze out a day of discipline according to schedule, whereupon I exhale a
     38 half-sigh of relief and immediately begin bullying myself to repeat this
     39 tomorrow.
     40 
     41 IT SUCKS.
     42 
     43 Yesterday, I finally realized that this method would never, ever work. I was
     44 shocked. But it never, ever has. I’ve been after myself on this score for,
     45 what, like ten years? Had it ever worked once in that time, I asked myself. No!
     46 I said immediately.
     47 
     48 Now what?
     49 
     50 I knew I had to give up trying to be disciplined in any conventional sense. And
     51 since the definition of suffering is trying the same thing over and over
     52 expecting a different result, I had to put myself out of my misery.
     53 
     54 Right away, interestingly, fear swept through me. If I’m not vigilant about
     55 making myself do stuff, I won’t do anything. And my commitment to meditate is
     56 critical on every level. I mean, I’m a meditation teacher who writes books
     57 about Buddhism. Shame if I turned out to be a phoney. And every writing book on
     58 earth says you must work at the same time every day, or words will never come.
     59 “Inspiration is for amateurs,” says painter Chuck Close. “The rest of us just
     60 show up and get to work…” I want to be like Chuck! There has to be another path
     61 to spiritual and creative discipline…what could it be?
     62 
     63 The answer I came up with? Pleasure. Pleasure! The last thing I usually think
     64 of when planning my day. Once I get all my work out of the way, maybe I can do
     65 something fun or satisfying or just cuz. I never do stuff just to have fun.
     66 Never. I am so not built like that. However…among the most pleasurable things
     67 in my life are the things I’m committed to doing: spiritual practice and
     68 writing. I love those things! I remembered that they make me happy. Maybe I
     69 could just jump into them for their own sake, for the joy of doing them rather
     70 than the obligation and it’s possible the whole thing would roll out just fine.
     71 Once I remembered that my motivation is rooted in genuine curiosity and that my
     72 tasks are in complete alignment with who I am and want to be, my office
     73 suddenly seemed like a playground rather than a labor camp.
     74 
     75 So I didn’t schedule myself at all. Instead, I asked myself: what do I feel
     76 like doing? What would be fun for me? Write? OK. What is fun about writing? Oh,
     77 it’s so cool when it just starts to flow and plus I really enjoy thinking about
     78 things like dharma and love and creativity simply for the sake of doing so. So
     79 start there. When you’re done, ask yourself what would be fun to do next.
     80 
     81 Which I did. And you know what? I did all the things I yell at myself to do. My
     82 day looked pretty much exactly like my days do when I succeed in being
     83 “disciplined.” Only this time, it seemed effortless. I had such a light heart.
     84 
     85 So, yes, discipline is critical, just like all the teachers say. And there is
     86 definitely stuff that needs doing that is just never going to be fun like
     87 paying bills and cleaning the cat box. But I suggest that instead of being
     88 disciplined about hating on yourself to get things done, try being disciplined
     89 about remaining close to what brings you joy. It takes a lot of courage,
     90 actually. See what happens. Let me know.
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     94 38 Comments
     95 
     96   • [ba8c5] Posted by:  [21]Maribeth
     97     August 20, 2010 at 6:55 pm
     98 
     99     Susan, you brought tears to my eyes. I struggle with the same thing. I will
    100     take your advice and focus my discipline on what brings me joy. Terrifying,
    101     but I will surely try! ♥
    102 
    103     [22]Reply
    104   • [ea0ca] Posted by:  Alane
    105     August 20, 2010 at 7:13 pm
    106 
    107     susan, i’ve been struggling with the same thing for the longest time too!
    108     since the weather has been so great out here in NJ, this summer i’ve taken
    109     the opportunity to follow my heart’s desire & let my routines go. yes, i’ve
    110     had fun, i’ve been relaxed but it seems like at a price. i will try &
    111     follow your lead to enjoy w/o the baggage of guilt!
    112 
    113     [23]Reply
    114   • [f2ed5] Posted by:  [24]Betsy Jackson
    115     August 20, 2010 at 7:44 pm
    116 
    117     After spending a day being fairly mean to myself; mowing, weeding, anything
    118     to keep my ass in gear…”God forbid, I sit this one out and relax under the
    119     trees and listen to the hawks and write and enjoy a kid-free/old Dad-free
    120     day”…anyway, I have you bookmarked and thought, let me see what Susan’s
    121     been up to…bingo! Thanks for being in the world. I love your writing. And
    122     your big heart.
    123 
    124     [25]Reply
    125   • [7fd06] Posted by:  [26]Marianne
    126     August 21, 2010 at 5:20 pm
    127 
    128     This is exactly my approach to my yoga practice and it’s the heart of the
    129     30 days of yoga (which I often think I should subtitle “A Kinder Approach
    130     to a Home Practice of Yoga”)
    131 
    132     So happy for you! I always say “follow your enthusiasm, follow your joy”,
    133     and it never fails to lead me to the places where I am of most service. And
    134     behold, as a wiser one than me once said, service was joy.
    135 
    136     [27]Reply
    137       □ [4173b] Posted by:  [28]Ryan
    138         May 22, 2023 at 1:16 am
    139 
    140         Marianne, your story is so freakily similar to my own. After struggling
    141         with this through my entire 20s and half of my 30s, I finally realized
    142         the source of all my angst. I called my problem “Sunday Night Dread”
    143         and ended up making a website about it ([29]https://
    144         sundaynightdread.com). Anyway, I had to just post and say, “Good for
    145         you!”. It’s amazing what we can get done when we’re kind to ourselves.
    146 
    147         [30]Reply
    148   • [bacfa] Posted by:  [31]Jennifer Louden
    149     August 23, 2010 at 7:18 pm
    150 
    151     I know, I know, I am off line for the month and yet, I saw your blog title
    152     when I had to go on line to get this fax number for the mortgage company
    153     and reading your post was like YES THAT IS WHAT I TELL everybody else. That
    154     is exactly the question that brings the MOST relief and breakthroughs at my
    155     retreats… and on my own personal retreats… so glad to see I am use you to
    156     help me remember to ask myself what I use for everyone else. Self-trust and
    157     wanting what you want, baby! Sing it!
    158 
    159     [32]Reply
    160   • [32b61] Posted by:  Betsy Hanger
    161     August 23, 2010 at 10:41 pm
    162 
    163     REMARKABLE. I’ve been working with this a great deal, especially since an
    164     epic dream presented to me just how much I beat myself up for not being
    165     Exactly Right at all times. I found you by going through a link to Stephen
    166     Mitchell….such are the yellowbrick roads we can follow. With much metta!
    167 
    168     [33]Reply
    169   • [9a38b] Posted by:  [34]Victoria Dzenis
    170     August 24, 2010 at 12:39 pm
    171 
    172     Thank you so much for this post! I read it at just the right time — when I
    173     was pondering the question, “how can I give myself permission to invite
    174     what inspires me?” I am seeing now how it’s not about permission or
    175     approval, but just about remembering why I LOVE what I do. Thank you!!!
    176 
    177     [35]Reply
    178   • [35baa] Posted by:  [36]Brett Dupree
    179     August 24, 2010 at 11:24 pm
    180 
    181     That is what I have been working on as well. Working on really enjoying my
    182     life and taking pleasure in it. Then acting out of that pleasure of
    183     enjoying my life. It is very fun work. 🙂
    184 
    185     [37]Reply
    186   • [30256] Posted by:  [38]Matthias
    187     August 25, 2010 at 12:26 pm
    188 
    189     After years of procrastinating and lack of motivation to do the good things
    190     in my life that I want and need to do, I have recently had loads of success
    191     with a system of rewards. I have labeled some tasks as little milestones,
    192     some as big milestones, and some as complete project. Each time I hit
    193     something on this list, I get a reward based on how significant an
    194     achievement it is. Completing a project earns me a big reward, completing a
    195     little milestone means something smaller. It is working great!
    196 
    197     [39]Reply
    198   • [5aecb] Posted by:  [40]Sue Mitchell
    199     August 25, 2010 at 2:03 pm
    200 
    201     Excellent post! I so relate to the rebellion I feel when I’m doing
    202     something because I “should,” even if it’s something I want to do. Focusing
    203     on the joy rather than the practical benefits of a task changes the whole
    204     feeling of it.
    205 
    206     If even the joy of it won’t motivate me, I like the mind trick of saying,
    207     “I’m not actually going to do yoga. I’m just going to get out my mat,” or
    208     “I’m just going to write a title and then worry about the rest later.” For
    209     me, so much of the trouble comes in just getting started.
    210 
    211     [41]Reply
    212   • [438af] Posted by:  Jessica Rampton
    213     August 25, 2010 at 2:35 pm
    214 
    215     Wow! I have experienced the same phenomena and been near the same insight,
    216     thank you for the post . I am also just throwing up my hands, and out my to
    217     do list, and just asking myself “what do you WANT to do right now?”
    218 
    219     [42]Reply
    220   • [7abfa] Posted by:  Rob
    221     August 25, 2010 at 8:22 pm
    222 
    223     I kept beating myself up. The yard was a mess, the driveway full of weeds
    224     and my cousin was coming for dinner. I’d been looking at the ever growing
    225     tide of green circling the house knowing it needed to be done, but just not
    226     doing it.
    227     Alright, go weed. As i began weeding it became a sort of simple pleasure.
    228     Yes, the desire to clean up the yard was still present but watching each
    229     green stem come out of the earth became so satisfying. I loved gently
    230     pulling and voilà, the root let go of the earth and came away in my hand.
    231     2 hours later and the place looked grand, my back was sore but ok and I
    232     felt so good. The time was ripe for weeding so I weeded!
    233 
    234     Where has it come from, this self-loathing? Even weirder is it seems to
    235     effect friends and family who are the most grounded and truly seeking peace
    236     and joy in their lives. Thanks for reminding me I’m not alone and how silly
    237     it is to continue raging against meself!
    238 
    239     [43]Reply
    240   • [wishl] Posted by:  [44]Susan
    241     August 26, 2010 at 10:21 am
    242 
    243     Wow, thanks so much to all of you who came out to take a look at all the
    244     ways we beat ourselves up for not being productive or perfect or maxing out
    245     every second, or however you term it. Rob, your question about where does
    246     self-loathing come from is so, so good. Where indeed?! I bet that you and
    247     the others who have commented are seen as accomplished and dedicated
    248     people.
    249 
    250     And thanks to everyone who made such good suggestions (like Sue’s
    251     just-take-the-first-step method and Matthias’ reward structure) because I
    252     know they’ll be helpful to others.
    253 
    254     I also feel quite heartened myself to know that I’m not alone in this. In
    255     the days since I wrote this post, I’ve been playing with the “work for the
    256     joy of it” model rather than “work to prove you’re not a loser” method.
    257     I’ve had some ups and downs, but most what I notice is that to stay with
    258     the joy method, I have to remain close to my own heart, to what I love. To
    259     stay with the “prove you’re not a loser” system, I have to remain close to
    260     how I think I might appear in the eyes of others. I forget my own heart.
    261 
    262     So, a mantra to begin the day and repeat throughout: Joy is to be found by
    263     remaining seated within myself. From this point, I can reach out to others
    264     with genuineness.
    265 
    266     [45]Reply
    267       □ [5eba0] Posted by:  Francesca
    268         August 2, 2023 at 10:50 pm
    269 
    270         I have some observations towards Robs (and all of our) questions of
    271         where self-loathing comes from. In the process of raising my tamarind,
    272         children, I notice it starts to creep in around the age of 10/11 coming
    273         from peers at school, broader family members, any humans who are
    274         trapped in the capitalist ‘productivity’ and ‘scarcity’ mindset. It’s
    275         so sad to observe, and I also have to hope that the first ten years of
    276         pure self-love have sown seeds that will remain forever blooming in
    277         them ❤️
    278 
    279         [46]Reply
    280           ☆ [1198a] Posted by:  Geoff
    281             November 8, 2023 at 2:28 am
    282 
    283             The problem with me is that when I ask ‘what would bring me joy
    284             now?’ the honest answer is to do something useless so I still have
    285             to rely on my inner sergeant to persuade me to do something joyful
    286             but useful. But he’s a kinder sergeant now, thanks to you.
    287 
    288             [47]Reply
    289   • [cd75d] Posted by:  [48]Ceci Miller
    290     August 27, 2010 at 3:27 pm
    291 
    292     Yes! Self-improvement is only the other side of the self-loathing coin, so
    293     it can’t buy us anything better. Weird how we don’t see this, but there it
    294     is. Love how you point out that appreciation “works” so much better than
    295     criticism. I’ll bet anybody who’s ever gotten a child absorbed in cleaning
    296     his/her room by introducing it as a fun sorting game would agree. Joy and
    297     genuineness and taking back your time. Now there’s a cool game 🙂
    298 
    299     [49]Reply
    300   • [aed93] Posted by:  [50]Jessica
    301     August 30, 2010 at 7:36 pm
    302 
    303     Hello Susan,
    304 
    305     I just have to say I have had the exact experience with trying to schedule
    306     my activities. This year I made a goal to not do that, and instead of the
    307     creative flow being squashed, it has flourished. It’s scary to let go of
    308     schedules and I still sometimes grasp to them. But when I manage to let go
    309     of them, creativity seems to want to take over. Peace to you!
    310 
    311     [51]Reply
    312   • [30be4] Posted by:  [52]Anna
    313     August 31, 2010 at 9:50 pm
    314 
    315     I just love this! I think I find myself writing a new “plan” for my days
    316     about, oh, every 2 weeks. I always get really excited it–like yes! this
    317     time I have a foolproof plan! Turns out only the fool part of it was right.
    318 
    319     Your post was a definitely a light-bulb moment for me. Enjoying my life?
    320     Enjoying a job I worked years to finally get and do really love when I’m
    321     not totally bogged down? That might just be crazy enough to work.
    322 
    323     Thanks for this!
    324 
    325     [53]Reply
    326       □ [23d58] Posted by:  [54]gerry
    327         September 25, 2016 at 4:27 am
    328 
    329         Oh Anna those lists and schedules! My notebook is full of them and I
    330         never learn. I love writing I’ve been writing for 50+ years but I still
    331         act to myself as if it’s something I have to force down my throat and
    332         so of course I rebel. Not doing that. You can’t make me.
    333         So my love Susan for this post and for all the comments. We are hunan.
    334         This is what we do. Aren’t we a funny old lot?
    335 
    336         [55]Reply
    337   • [dcaf2] Posted by:  Breton Caplan
    338     September 2, 2010 at 3:25 pm
    339 
    340     Hi Susan.This posting is so perfect… I’m at Kripalu for a weeklong retreat.
    341     Loving every moment and made a commitment as I walked in the door to only
    342     do what I want to do and only timed as I feel compelled. Usually I’d plan
    343     back to back during a retreat and make sure I don’t miss a thing. I’m
    344     blessed with not having that pressure right now. I’m journaling when I want
    345     to, sunbathing and reading (I do have SPF) when others are taking walks or
    346     doing group activities and I am not missing a thing. I’ve walked past
    347     classes and said “My body doesn’t feel like that right now” and respected
    348     it. And I’m fitting in a lot of activity…. Primarily time alone in my own
    349     head. Grateful.
    350     Thank you for the post. And hope you are well.
    351 
    352     [56]Reply
    353   • [824c9] Posted by:  [57]Edward Mirza
    354     September 25, 2016 at 5:10 am
    355 
    356     Hi, I have found, in a way, the opposite to be true, but with a difference.
    357     Yes, in the past I would try to make schedules, but get depressed, but when
    358     I agreed with a friend to send him a report of my time use at the end of
    359     the day, I found the schedule life-changing and liberating. I believe this
    360     schedule, however, should be a work of art, and ultimately aimed to be
    361     something you enjoy.
    362 
    363     [58]Reply
    364   • [eb32f] Posted by:  Anne
    365     September 25, 2016 at 11:01 am
    366 
    367     I love this post (referenced in a UK newspaper article this weekend). I
    368     totally agree. But how does it work for the jobs I loathe and which cause
    369     the most angst because they don’t get done ? Eg cleaning the kitchen floor,
    370     doing my finances and paperwork, defrosting the freezer – there’s always a
    371     reason not to do those and I’ll never WANT to! My hunch is that the answer
    372     lies in noticing how I feel if I continue to resist doing them – that
    373     sticky, crunchy floor, the continuous background nag of anxiety because I
    374     don’t know exactly where I am with my finances, being unable to close the
    375     freezer door and having to deal with it immediately – in the end, NOT doing
    376     the most-hated jobs causes more stress and unhappiness than getting them
    377     out of the way. So it’s mindfulness – noticing when something is bothering
    378     me, and happiness will be increased by not avoiding it any longer.
    379 
    380     [59]Reply
    381   • [4645b] Posted by:  Soneye Saheed
    382     July 29, 2020 at 11:32 am
    383 
    384     Thanks Susan for this amazing article.
    385 
    386     I have also been beating myself up for not doing the things I want/need to
    387     do (And I still am at the time of writing this).
    388 
    389     It is quite easy to make a decision to do certain things, but once the
    390     moment is over, everything goes away with it. Inspiration is so overrated.
    391 
    392     I will take your advice and try to focus more on the joy that comes along
    393     with doing the tasks. I will also try to reward myself for completing any
    394     of them.
    395 
    396     Thanks once again.
    397 
    398     [60]Reply
    399       □ [wishl] Posted by:  Susan Piver
    400         July 29, 2020 at 1:28 pm
    401 
    402         So glad you found it useful. Wishing you all the luck and skill!!!!
    403 
    404         [61]Reply
    405   • [2459c] Posted by:  Sha
    406     September 7, 2020 at 3:51 am
    407 
    408     i just read this post as a link from a Guardian article sept 2020
    409     Really relate to it and tend to live this way!!!
    410 
    411     [62]Reply
    412       □ [wishl] Posted by:  Susan Piver
    413         September 7, 2020 at 3:16 pm
    414 
    415         Go for it!
    416 
    417         [63]Reply
    418   • [d058e] Posted by:  Fiona Redshaw
    419     September 22, 2020 at 7:59 am
    420 
    421     Oh this is so cool! Just read an article that a friend forwarded me
    422     recently from the Guardian and there was a mention of you and a link to
    423     this post in there 💫. Apart from being super excited to see you mentioned,
    424     I loved your post from all those years ago (2010, what?!). What a timely
    425     reminder to ease up on my to-do list that still somehow acts as a constant
    426     yardstick for my productivity and self worth (or generally lack thereof).
    427     This article reminded me why I love you so much! Thanks Susan. Fiona x
    428 
    429     [64]Reply
    430       □ [wishl] Posted by:  Susan Piver
    431         September 28, 2020 at 8:32 am
    432 
    433         Love you too!! Miss you!! xo S
    434 
    435         [65]Reply
    436   • [3a459] Posted by:  Diana Ruth Nichols
    437     May 16, 2021 at 5:39 am
    438 
    439     Same regarding Guardian article, here. Delighted to realize that in
    440     retirement and my 74th year, I am happy and relaxed and centered because of
    441     this experience of “enjoying happiness”.
    442 
    443     [66]Reply
    444   • [5347b] Posted by:  Susan Williams
    445     June 27, 2022 at 3:52 pm
    446 
    447     OMG!!! You are me!! And I am you!! And my name is Susan too!! Everything
    448     you said in this post describes me TO A T!!! Thank you! Thank you! Thank
    449     you! for sharing. Now I don’t feel so alone. I can stop scolding myself for
    450     not “doing” and enjoy the journey.
    451 
    452     [67]Reply
    453   • [440cf] Posted by:  RationalistFiath
    454     May 20, 2023 at 12:02 am
    455 
    456     In a Western led world that has been built on oppression and (fake)wars,
    457     it’s not a surprise that it has trickled down to the individuals and how
    458     they treat themselves.
    459 
    460     Allah Bless you for snapping out of it and sharing the power of empathy.
    461 
    462     [68]Reply
    463   • [eb32f] Posted by:  Anne
    464     November 8, 2023 at 3:23 am
    465 
    466     I had exactly this epiphany a few months ago. I got so tired and frustrated
    467     with my endless failure to keep to schedules or complete tasks that one day
    468     – I just gave up. Now, as you say, I just do what I feel like doing. And it
    469     all gets done. Even the housework and life admin. Because there’s always a
    470     moment when I find I have the energy for the less appealing tasks. Energy
    471     that comes from more time spent on what I love.
    472 
    473     [69]Reply
    474   • [f058b] Posted by:  Barbara Korzeniowska
    475     January 14, 2024 at 11:49 am
    476 
    477     I too am a natural procrastinator, but I try to enjoy everything I do –
    478     even cleaning the cooker, which is my absolute bete noire. You are so right
    479     – things go so much better when you’re having fun. years ago I learnt to
    480     love queuing. i would take a book or some embroidery and catch up on one or
    481     the other when standing in line. Brilliant
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