From b661569dfa88a3380355c21163e6b97fd9209653 Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001 From: David Eisinger Date: Wed, 17 Sep 2025 10:59:47 -0400 Subject: [PATCH] Add MPH link --- .../journal/dispatch-32-october-2025/index.md | 5 + static/archive/lmno-lol-f6bq3n.txt | 121 ++++++++++++++++++ 2 files changed, 126 insertions(+) create mode 100644 static/archive/lmno-lol-f6bq3n.txt diff --git a/content/journal/dispatch-32-october-2025/index.md b/content/journal/dispatch-32-october-2025/index.md index 32add86..3591cac 100644 --- a/content/journal/dispatch-32-october-2025/index.md +++ b/content/journal/dispatch-32-october-2025/index.md @@ -4,6 +4,11 @@ date: 2025-09-09T16:29:57-04:00 draft: false tags: - dispatch +references: +- title: "Aspiration" + url: https://lmno.lol/puddingtime/aspiration + date: 2025-09-14T05:24:26Z + file: lmno-lol-f6bq3n.txt --- Some thoughts here... diff --git a/static/archive/lmno-lol-f6bq3n.txt b/static/archive/lmno-lol-f6bq3n.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..b439fe9 --- /dev/null +++ b/static/archive/lmno-lol-f6bq3n.txt @@ -0,0 +1,121 @@ +[1]@puddingtime +[2]sign in · [3]lmno.lol + + _____ _____ _ _____ ______ _ _ ______ ______ _____ _ _ _____ _____ _____ ___ ___ _____ _ + |_ _||_ _|( )/ ___| | ___ \| | | || _ \| _ \|_ _|| \ | || __ \|_ _||_ _|| \/ || ___|| | + | | | | |/ \ `--. | |_/ /| | | || | | || | | | | | | \| || | \/ | | | | | . . || |__ | | + | | | | `--. \ | __/ | | | || | | || | | | | | | . ` || | __ | | | | | |\/| || __| | | + _| |_ | | /\__/ / | | | |_| || |/ / | |/ / _| |_ | |\ || |_\ \ | | _| |_ | | | || |___ |_| + \___/ \_/ \____/ \_| \___/ |___/ |___/ \___/ \_| \_/ \____/ \_/ \___/ \_| |_/\____/ (_) 🔥🤘🏻🔥 + +September 11, 2025 + +[4]Aspiration + +[5]Gasworks park metal structures + +Wow. First post in almost a month. I suppose it has been busy: Two long +weekends away from home in SLC and Seattle, and a generally busy work month. + +Last weekend we went to see Thee Oh Sees in Seattle. That was 90 minutes of +intensity. Al said it was her favorite show of the year. I'd place it a close +second or a tie with Mutoid Man. We have tickets for one more show this year: +YOB at Revolution Hall. + +I mentioned on Mastodon that I had just gone through and unsubscribed from a +bunch of apps and services. DayOne was one of them. I thought about it a little +at the time, but only to reassure myself that I had a few formats worth of +backups, because I've been using that app for over 20 years and while I haven't +been a diligent user, it has a lot of stuff in it. + +Yesterday, as I got ready for a meeting, I fired up my SuperNote tablet and had +this brief idea of "oh, this'd be great for an interstitial log," then started +a log page with a few entries from the day so far, when I stopped and thought +"why am I doing this?" + +The answer was, "because I read about interstitial logging a while back, have +tried it in a few contexts, and it has never really 'taken', so it remains this +thing that sounds cool but hasn't had a habit built around it." + +So I stopped writing. + +And this morning I noticed my DayOne backup sitting in the transit folder I put +it in, waiting to be put somewhere permanent, and I thought "oh man, how am I +going to journal?" + +But the answer is, "I don't really journal that much." I write posts now and +then when moved, but journaling isn't something I do a lot of, and I haven't +made a habit of it. + +I don't think I want to make a habit of it. The same way I don't think I want +to make a habit of interstitial logging. + +(On review: I have a particular relationship with the word want. When asked "do +you want to ..." I try to reserve "yes" for things I have already considered +and have decided to form an intention around. And on the back end, if I find +myself saying, "I want to ..." but then never do it, I have sort of an +existential relationship to the word: You aren't what you say you are. You +haven't done what you said you want to do. You are what you do. And barring +blockers, obstacles, and other matters of physics and circumstance, if you +thought you wanted to do something, then never did it, but completely could +have, can you really be said to have wanted to do it? At the very best, "not +much." I don't think this is a popular point of view because people are +increasingly suspicious of the idea that anyone actually has any agency.) + +So rather than wanting to do all sorts of things, I'm just sort of a sucker for +the occasional "someone on the Internet says they do this thing and I think +that sounds cool so I take a poke at it, don't really feel the value of it so +much as I briefly liked the idea of it, and then there's this zombie file or +application or folder full of something I'd hesitate to even call an +aspiration." + +Someone I once knew said something withering about me regarding that whole +loop, and I let their framing dominate my thinking for a long time. Maybe in +the past four or five years, especially after I read Digital Minimalism, I +began to think about it less like evidence of a character defect and more as +evidence that I have moments of curiosity and interest, and am probably more +willing than many (broadly considered) to just try stuff out. It's just me. I +don't owe some outer authority any reporting on the matter. And that particular +drive has put a roof over my head, put food on my table, and is paying for my +kid to go to college. It has led me to some weird places, including Ft. Bragg +drop zones, but it has also opened doors. If I've got an issue with the whole +thing, it's more a question of how I want to spend my time, and if I'd rather +be doing other things. + +So, the big unsusbscription/app deletion kick was good, because it did get a +lot of brush cleared away: I not only turned off all those things, but made it +hard to see them and either a. poke at them some more for no reason besides +idle curiosity or habit, or b. decide to resubscribe. Which means when I think +"Oh man, how am I going to ... " [some thing that never really took and that I +didn't seem to want to make into a habit] there's a better chance I'll have an +arresting thought, because there's nothing to go click and fuck around with. + +That's a good state to be in, because with nothing to idly do, I tend to go +just a few places: + + • I pick up a book + • I do something photography-related + • I pick a game I can zone out with, which really means that I occupy my + superficial awareness with a smidge of sensory exclusivity while I have a + long thought about whatever I need to think about right now + +Those are all the things I want to do. Not the things I just briefly thought +sounded cool. + + + +powered by [6]LMNO.lol + +[7]privacy policy · [8]terms of service + + +References: + +[1] https://lmno.lol/puddingtime +[2] https://lmno.lol/signin?goto=/puddingtime/aspiration +[3] https://lmno.lol/ +[4] https://lmno.lol/puddingtime/aspiration +[5] https://pix.puddingtime.org/-1/i-TP3qH9Q/A +[6] https://lmno.lol/ +[7] https://lmno.lol/blog/privacy-policy +[8] https://lmno.lol/blog/terms-of-service