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- title: "Aspiration"
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url: https://lmno.lol/puddingtime/aspiration
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date: 2025-09-14T05:24:26Z
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file: lmno-lol-f6bq3n.txt
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Some thoughts here...
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[1]@puddingtime
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[2]sign in · [3]lmno.lol
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\___/ \_/ \____/ \_| \___/ |___/ |___/ \___/ \_| \_/ \____/ \_/ \___/ \_| |_/\____/ (_) 🔥🤘🏻🔥
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September 11, 2025
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[4]Aspiration
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[5]Gasworks park metal structures
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Wow. First post in almost a month. I suppose it has been busy: Two long
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weekends away from home in SLC and Seattle, and a generally busy work month.
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Last weekend we went to see Thee Oh Sees in Seattle. That was 90 minutes of
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intensity. Al said it was her favorite show of the year. I'd place it a close
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second or a tie with Mutoid Man. We have tickets for one more show this year:
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YOB at Revolution Hall.
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I mentioned on Mastodon that I had just gone through and unsubscribed from a
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bunch of apps and services. DayOne was one of them. I thought about it a little
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at the time, but only to reassure myself that I had a few formats worth of
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backups, because I've been using that app for over 20 years and while I haven't
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been a diligent user, it has a lot of stuff in it.
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Yesterday, as I got ready for a meeting, I fired up my SuperNote tablet and had
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this brief idea of "oh, this'd be great for an interstitial log," then started
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a log page with a few entries from the day so far, when I stopped and thought
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"why am I doing this?"
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The answer was, "because I read about interstitial logging a while back, have
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tried it in a few contexts, and it has never really 'taken', so it remains this
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thing that sounds cool but hasn't had a habit built around it."
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So I stopped writing.
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And this morning I noticed my DayOne backup sitting in the transit folder I put
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it in, waiting to be put somewhere permanent, and I thought "oh man, how am I
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going to journal?"
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But the answer is, "I don't really journal that much." I write posts now and
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then when moved, but journaling isn't something I do a lot of, and I haven't
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made a habit of it.
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I don't think I want to make a habit of it. The same way I don't think I want
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to make a habit of interstitial logging.
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(On review: I have a particular relationship with the word want. When asked "do
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you want to ..." I try to reserve "yes" for things I have already considered
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and have decided to form an intention around. And on the back end, if I find
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myself saying, "I want to ..." but then never do it, I have sort of an
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existential relationship to the word: You aren't what you say you are. You
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haven't done what you said you want to do. You are what you do. And barring
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blockers, obstacles, and other matters of physics and circumstance, if you
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thought you wanted to do something, then never did it, but completely could
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have, can you really be said to have wanted to do it? At the very best, "not
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much." I don't think this is a popular point of view because people are
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increasingly suspicious of the idea that anyone actually has any agency.)
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So rather than wanting to do all sorts of things, I'm just sort of a sucker for
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the occasional "someone on the Internet says they do this thing and I think
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that sounds cool so I take a poke at it, don't really feel the value of it so
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much as I briefly liked the idea of it, and then there's this zombie file or
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application or folder full of something I'd hesitate to even call an
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aspiration."
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Someone I once knew said something withering about me regarding that whole
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loop, and I let their framing dominate my thinking for a long time. Maybe in
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the past four or five years, especially after I read Digital Minimalism, I
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began to think about it less like evidence of a character defect and more as
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evidence that I have moments of curiosity and interest, and am probably more
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willing than many (broadly considered) to just try stuff out. It's just me. I
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don't owe some outer authority any reporting on the matter. And that particular
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drive has put a roof over my head, put food on my table, and is paying for my
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kid to go to college. It has led me to some weird places, including Ft. Bragg
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drop zones, but it has also opened doors. If I've got an issue with the whole
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thing, it's more a question of how I want to spend my time, and if I'd rather
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be doing other things.
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So, the big unsusbscription/app deletion kick was good, because it did get a
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lot of brush cleared away: I not only turned off all those things, but made it
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hard to see them and either a. poke at them some more for no reason besides
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idle curiosity or habit, or b. decide to resubscribe. Which means when I think
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"Oh man, how am I going to ... " [some thing that never really took and that I
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didn't seem to want to make into a habit] there's a better chance I'll have an
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arresting thought, because there's nothing to go click and fuck around with.
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That's a good state to be in, because with nothing to idly do, I tend to go
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just a few places:
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• I pick up a book
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• I do something photography-related
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• I pick a game I can zone out with, which really means that I occupy my
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superficial awareness with a smidge of sensory exclusivity while I have a
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long thought about whatever I need to think about right now
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Those are all the things I want to do. Not the things I just briefly thought
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sounded cool.
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powered by [6]LMNO.lol
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[7]privacy policy · [8]terms of service
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References:
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[1] https://lmno.lol/puddingtime
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[2] https://lmno.lol/signin?goto=/puddingtime/aspiration
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[3] https://lmno.lol/
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[4] https://lmno.lol/puddingtime/aspiration
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[5] https://pix.puddingtime.org/-1/i-TP3qH9Q/A
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[6] https://lmno.lol/
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[7] https://lmno.lol/blog/privacy-policy
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[8] https://lmno.lol/blog/terms-of-service
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