commit b661569dfa88a3380355c21163e6b97fd9209653
parent f77f5a0e804d6e24ef92ff9c61945d96fbde69a4
Author: David Eisinger <[email protected]>
Date: Wed, 17 Sep 2025 10:59:47 -0400
Add MPH link
Diffstat:
2 files changed, 126 insertions(+), 0 deletions(-)
diff --git a/content/journal/dispatch-32-october-2025/index.md b/content/journal/dispatch-32-october-2025/index.md
@@ -4,6 +4,11 @@ date: 2025-09-09T16:29:57-04:00
draft: false
tags:
- dispatch
+references:
+- title: "Aspiration"
+ url: https://lmno.lol/puddingtime/aspiration
+ date: 2025-09-14T05:24:26Z
+ file: lmno-lol-f6bq3n.txt
---
Some thoughts here...
diff --git a/static/archive/lmno-lol-f6bq3n.txt b/static/archive/lmno-lol-f6bq3n.txt
@@ -0,0 +1,121 @@
+[1]@puddingtime
+[2]sign in · [3]lmno.lol
+
+ _____ _____ _ _____ ______ _ _ ______ ______ _____ _ _ _____ _____ _____ ___ ___ _____ _
+ |_ _||_ _|( )/ ___| | ___ \| | | || _ \| _ \|_ _|| \ | || __ \|_ _||_ _|| \/ || ___|| |
+ | | | | |/ \ `--. | |_/ /| | | || | | || | | | | | | \| || | \/ | | | | | . . || |__ | |
+ | | | | `--. \ | __/ | | | || | | || | | | | | | . ` || | __ | | | | | |\/| || __| | |
+ _| |_ | | /\__/ / | | | |_| || |/ / | |/ / _| |_ | |\ || |_\ \ | | _| |_ | | | || |___ |_|
+ \___/ \_/ \____/ \_| \___/ |___/ |___/ \___/ \_| \_/ \____/ \_/ \___/ \_| |_/\____/ (_) 🔥🤘🏻🔥
+
+September 11, 2025
+
+[4]Aspiration
+
+[5]Gasworks park metal structures
+
+Wow. First post in almost a month. I suppose it has been busy: Two long
+weekends away from home in SLC and Seattle, and a generally busy work month.
+
+Last weekend we went to see Thee Oh Sees in Seattle. That was 90 minutes of
+intensity. Al said it was her favorite show of the year. I'd place it a close
+second or a tie with Mutoid Man. We have tickets for one more show this year:
+YOB at Revolution Hall.
+
+I mentioned on Mastodon that I had just gone through and unsubscribed from a
+bunch of apps and services. DayOne was one of them. I thought about it a little
+at the time, but only to reassure myself that I had a few formats worth of
+backups, because I've been using that app for over 20 years and while I haven't
+been a diligent user, it has a lot of stuff in it.
+
+Yesterday, as I got ready for a meeting, I fired up my SuperNote tablet and had
+this brief idea of "oh, this'd be great for an interstitial log," then started
+a log page with a few entries from the day so far, when I stopped and thought
+"why am I doing this?"
+
+The answer was, "because I read about interstitial logging a while back, have
+tried it in a few contexts, and it has never really 'taken', so it remains this
+thing that sounds cool but hasn't had a habit built around it."
+
+So I stopped writing.
+
+And this morning I noticed my DayOne backup sitting in the transit folder I put
+it in, waiting to be put somewhere permanent, and I thought "oh man, how am I
+going to journal?"
+
+But the answer is, "I don't really journal that much." I write posts now and
+then when moved, but journaling isn't something I do a lot of, and I haven't
+made a habit of it.
+
+I don't think I want to make a habit of it. The same way I don't think I want
+to make a habit of interstitial logging.
+
+(On review: I have a particular relationship with the word want. When asked "do
+you want to ..." I try to reserve "yes" for things I have already considered
+and have decided to form an intention around. And on the back end, if I find
+myself saying, "I want to ..." but then never do it, I have sort of an
+existential relationship to the word: You aren't what you say you are. You
+haven't done what you said you want to do. You are what you do. And barring
+blockers, obstacles, and other matters of physics and circumstance, if you
+thought you wanted to do something, then never did it, but completely could
+have, can you really be said to have wanted to do it? At the very best, "not
+much." I don't think this is a popular point of view because people are
+increasingly suspicious of the idea that anyone actually has any agency.)
+
+So rather than wanting to do all sorts of things, I'm just sort of a sucker for
+the occasional "someone on the Internet says they do this thing and I think
+that sounds cool so I take a poke at it, don't really feel the value of it so
+much as I briefly liked the idea of it, and then there's this zombie file or
+application or folder full of something I'd hesitate to even call an
+aspiration."
+
+Someone I once knew said something withering about me regarding that whole
+loop, and I let their framing dominate my thinking for a long time. Maybe in
+the past four or five years, especially after I read Digital Minimalism, I
+began to think about it less like evidence of a character defect and more as
+evidence that I have moments of curiosity and interest, and am probably more
+willing than many (broadly considered) to just try stuff out. It's just me. I
+don't owe some outer authority any reporting on the matter. And that particular
+drive has put a roof over my head, put food on my table, and is paying for my
+kid to go to college. It has led me to some weird places, including Ft. Bragg
+drop zones, but it has also opened doors. If I've got an issue with the whole
+thing, it's more a question of how I want to spend my time, and if I'd rather
+be doing other things.
+
+So, the big unsusbscription/app deletion kick was good, because it did get a
+lot of brush cleared away: I not only turned off all those things, but made it
+hard to see them and either a. poke at them some more for no reason besides
+idle curiosity or habit, or b. decide to resubscribe. Which means when I think
+"Oh man, how am I going to ... " [some thing that never really took and that I
+didn't seem to want to make into a habit] there's a better chance I'll have an
+arresting thought, because there's nothing to go click and fuck around with.
+
+That's a good state to be in, because with nothing to idly do, I tend to go
+just a few places:
+
+ • I pick up a book
+ • I do something photography-related
+ • I pick a game I can zone out with, which really means that I occupy my
+ superficial awareness with a smidge of sensory exclusivity while I have a
+ long thought about whatever I need to think about right now
+
+Those are all the things I want to do. Not the things I just briefly thought
+sounded cool.
+
+
+
+powered by [6]LMNO.lol
+
+[7]privacy policy · [8]terms of service
+
+
+References:
+
+[1] https://lmno.lol/puddingtime
+[2] https://lmno.lol/signin?goto=/puddingtime/aspiration
+[3] https://lmno.lol/
+[4] https://lmno.lol/puddingtime/aspiration
+[5] https://pix.puddingtime.org/-1/i-TP3qH9Q/A
+[6] https://lmno.lol/
+[7] https://lmno.lol/blog/privacy-policy
+[8] https://lmno.lol/blog/terms-of-service
